高行健

昨天和家人去了高行健的水墨画展，看了他跟《焦点》的访问和香港为他做的一个节目。也看了他的戏《八月雪》的几个片断，读了几页《灵山》。

不喜欢高行健。不喜欢他那自负又故作超然的态度。弟弟说艺术家都必须够骄够傲才能成功。妈妈说他有傲的本事。是吗？可我看过许多和高一样有本事的大家，一站在讲台上或与人交谈时，谦谦君子的风度自然流露，让人打从心底佩服。已达巅峰却仍保持谦逊之心，这才是所谓的成功。高行健自言艺术家是世界公民，一切只以人性为重。认为自己已脱离世俗眼光，作品被称超凡脱俗，戏剧禅意深远。是吗？

也许是我眼光庸俗，仍旧无法看得明白。傲不是不好，自负也非坏事，但太过骄纵的人，却又如何能够真正理解生命？ 一个故作清高的艺术家，又如何放低身段去了解何谓人性？一个超然脱俗的人，自认在乎的东西不多了，却在言语中流露对中国的埋怨。总觉得在听一个被赶出家门的孩子说不需要家的气话。虽然自称不在乎，语气的酸意却欲盖弥彰。无法放下，如何无我？明镜亦非台，何处染尘埃。若非无物，尘埃拭后仍来，徒留指纹在在。

哎，说了这么多，也不是说这个全球华人的首个诺贝尔奖得主不好。虽然他似乎挺埋怨得了这个奖。喜欢他说的一句话：“人的终极目标是在此刻当下，生命本身。” 能说出这样的话的人，总有值得人佩服之处。也许，只是我自己不懂而已。

无论如何，好久没一家人一起出门了。也真的挺开心的。

At the End of the Day

Now Playing: At the End of the Day - Emi Fujita

Misc. items for the past two weeks include a cousin outing which shows that I do follow up to what I say! Haha.. it wasn’t a very successful one though coz another cousin couldn’t make it becoz of work and my own brother was off filming the rain of all things.. We’ll try to get another more complete one in when cny rolls by…

Had my first vocal lesson with the second one due today. Also have a few lesson due to start next week… jazz, body movement and merengue if it isn’t cancelled… pilates was supposed to start last week but Helen couldn’t make it. But I managed to pull Lirong down for dinner and we had quite a chat so it wasn’t all a wasted trip...

Gab came over last Sat for a rest in between his many dates and we went down to Orchard together where we had respective dates for the night… caught a glimpse of his latest girl before I met Fen for dinner.

Also met JL and Shufen on the 2nd for lunch at My Humble Home. Always wanted to try the fusion food there… and it was really yummy. I had duck cigar roll which is juz a glam name for spring roll but it was very crispy and the sauce was just right.

Also got my gift from P from JL… Wicked soundtrack! And he really wrapped it up and added a surprise which turned out to show how sweet but silly he is…it brings back memories of that perfect night….

All in all, the first two weeks of 2006 have been quite fruitful… work-filled yes, but with little nuggets of fun in between… and I do enjoy the work despite all my whining and grumbling… It’s fun dealing with my kids and I had a few successful classes with my sec 1 kids that show great promise. My Sec 3s is another story but I’ll just try harder… Miss my Sec 4s, but I do see them now and again, the cheeky terrors… However, friends have been saying I look tired and colleagues comment that I look less “fresh” compared to last year…

Looking back the past two weeks of running to and fro…somehow the days seem to mesh altogether… I always seem to tell myself the same thing and yet forget it the very next minute, to take things slower… to take each day as it comes… to count my blessings at the end of each day...

Tomorrow's just a dream away
Close the curtain on today

Concerts and stuff....

Now Playing: Every Breath You Take - Emi Fujita

*surfaces and dusts off the journal*

I am definitely not good at keeping a journal… its been 2 weeks since I’ve last updated! Darn… must work harder at this..

What’s new in the life? School started which is the major reason for the lack of updates, been dizzy running around recently busy with the CCA which did 3 shows recently, 2 for the orientation and the last which isn’t really a show but had so many darn rehearsals for a less than 3 minutes “welcome” and a less than 2 minutes finale…for 5 minutes worth of show, it took numerous rehearsals through the past 2 weeks and 2 full days down at UCC. Is it worth it? Well… all I know was I breathed a lot easier when it was all over.... there was so many nitty-gritty little things to look out for… minor ones including the fact that the lion heads must have someone looking after them at all times, there was two shows at the UCC therefore two guest-of-honors arriving and I had to make sure the lion heads only appeared after the other show guest-of-honor arrives (it didn’t help that I’m not into politics and had absolutely no idea what the minister of state looked like and had no idea who among the many vvips is the guy!). Added to all is the incessant chatter of my girls… I have a near-migraine by the time I get home each night…

My co-teacher-in-charge was laughing at me when I muttered for the darn guest-of-honor to get in the hall so I can get my boys to carry the silver cart with the enormous drum across the hall and stow it away safely for the night. Yes, carry, coz UCC is afraid that rolling it over with it rubber-soled wheels will scratch their precious marble floor... but at that point… all I wanted was for it all to be over…

Thank goodness 50 years only comes once every… erm… 50 years… hopefully the next time another 50 years rolls around, I’ll only have to turn up before the show starts and settle in comfortably to enjoy it…

Still, it’s a worthwhile experience… for the whole school to work together to put up a show, one can really feel the school spirit… like BH said… 50 years doesn’t come by easily…

And although I didn’t tell them, I’m really proud of my wushu kids… they did really well for both the wushu show in the orientation and the welcome and finale last night… I can really see the change in them… from the nervous first time they had to perform on the parade ground for the “lighting of eyes” ritual, to the poise they showed last night… I was biting my nails for fear that they’ll miss the finale cue but they came exactly on time…

They have been training almost daily since the holidays started last year and for long hours each time (I’m talking from 11am to 6pm)… I know they are tired and their parents aren’t very happy with the long hours and frequent trainings… but other than the few times they come to me and ask when their last performance is, they barely complained… they are good kids, incessant chatter and all… and the poor things will have a long time to wait before they can take a break... the upcoming show for cny is due in two weeks and after that is the Chinese Culture Fortnight...